If you can back to the past, which time you want to go back?

TIme is moving, and didn’t stop in some era. And when you realize it, maybe you are already more than 50 years old. We really didn’t feel it but it’s the reality.

Sometimes, when you have nothing to do, you will think, if that time, I didn’t choose this path, what will happens to my life? I am sure this must be appear in your mind.

If you given a chance to go back to the past, in what time you wish to go back?

I think, if I have a chance to go back to the past, I choose to go back when I am 16-17 years old. When I’m in Senior High School.

That time, I don’t have enough confident and I am not that “famous”. And I choose IT for my undergraduate major. I want to change it to Medicine. And become General Surgeon and doing social work.

Altough I hate Biology that time, altough I didn’t like chemistry, but if I have a change, I really wants to help people in medicine field.

And I will try to apply international scholarship, between China and Korean. I know it will be hard because that time, I’m not that clever and confident.

For Social Work, I want to challenge my self in that time. Can I do it? For a girl who didn’t have confident back then, this is a big challenge. Even speaking in front of people, make me freeze.

18 years old of me, is when I’m starting to develop my interest and build my confidence. So I want to go back before it, to make difference.

I know that if I choose different path from what I choose now, the future will be different. But still, we really don’t know what’s gonna happen if we choose different path. Will it be better, or it will be worst.

And once again, it’s impossible to go back to the past. This questions is just if. Please don’t make it to your mind and heart deeply. Life must go on, and we only able to move forward. We don’t know what’s gonna happen tomorrow, even we don’t know what’s gonna happen in the next second. Let’s do the best for now.

When you want to give up, just remember why you started.

Nowadays, because Pandemic Covid-19, I rarely went to gym or going hash. Because it required many people and we really don’t know the situation and condition. So better be save.

Since May 2020, I started to running again with my dad. And we run about 8.79 – 8.99km.

You know, the first time running, I have this thinking, I won’t running again. Really, all body is hurting and mostly I walk. But then I just think, what’s the purpose for me to running again?

Then the 2nd time, I still want to give up. It even worst. Once I started, I want to go back home immediately.

After the 3rd time, I feel more ease. It feels very light to run.

Then the 4th time, Try to run 3km non stop, and fix my running method. Sometimes, I’m too lazy to lift my foot so it rubs the road. And it dangerous because I can fall.

5th time, try to do the right method, and have a steady breath. And try to run for 4km nonstop.

6th time, this time, as today, I started to use the right method and try to run 4km nonstop and walk 1km then run again 4km. And mostly did it.

This is my best score so far. And because I have stomachache while running so it delayed my time a little. Hopefully next week will be better.

Sometimes, when I’m running, I have 2 kind of thinking.

  1. To give up, and walk instead of running. The first side of my inner thought said, you are tired so just walk, why you should try to tiring yourself.
  2. To continue running, the other side of my inner thought said, you promise yourself that you will run 4km nonstop. So why you started if you give up later?

Even when I wake up in the morning when it’s time to running, I have this thought too, to looking for a reason to not run and sleep again. Haha..

Sometimes, in life we have to choose our own path. And we really don’t know how is the process, and what is the result. And once you started to walk the path you choose, there’s many obstacle in it which make you doubt your decision. And sometimes, you want to give up and change to the other path. But the other path you didn’t choose is gone already.

If you have this thought, just remember, why you started from the first time if you decided to give up before you make it?

So when you want to do something, just remember that we can’t going back to the past. And there’s no people who can not do something, but only there’s people who lazy. I’m sure everyone always start from the very beginning. And as a person, you start to speak and walk from baby, and sometimes you fall. But you didn’t give up. So why don’t learn from baby?



当机会来了,你能不能抓得住,其实就靠平时的积累 —— 肖战

Actually, when the opportunity comes, it depends of how you accumulate the usually you can catch it or not — Xiao Zhan